I mentioned this briefly on social media the other week—how I was going through something that led to a spontaneous emotional release.
First, I want to share where I stand when it comes to emotional release: I don’t believe it should be a goal, or something we constantly chase. Sometimes, I feel it becomes another way to escape what’s present.
What I love about spontaneous emotional release is that it’s not forced—it’s something that happens when you’re truly holding yourself in all your emotions. It’s your body and soul integrating something deep on a somatic and energetic level, and then—suddenly—the release just comes.
In my case, I had been doing a breathwork process that gently guided me into feeling all my emotions unconditionally. And wow… it made me realize just how complex I am (and honestly, I’m sure that’s true for everyone). I saw how deeply emotional I actually am.
I’m learning to hold myself even in the darkest and heaviest emotions. It’s so tempting to run, suppress, or distract myself—but this practice is about staying. Holding myself, even when it feels unbearable.
This process eventually brought me to a place where I felt completely paralyzed. Like I couldn’t move or do anything. I had several moments where I just had to stop and breathe into this energy—the feeling of not being capable. It was terrifying at times. My mind slipped into victimhood, asking: “Am I always going to be like this?”
But I kept choosing presence. I stayed with the sensations of paralysis. I let myself lie on the floor and just be with this part of me. Until one evening, I picked up my guitar, strummed two chords—and suddenly, a childhood memory surfaced.
I remembered a moment when I was young and my nervous system had gone into freeze mode. I was paralyzed. As a child, I didn’t have the tools to handle what was happening. I didn’t have a safe parent to help me navigate it. So that emotional and energetic imprint stayed frozen in my body… until now.
This time, I could be the safe parent I needed. I could hold myself and move through that memory in a new way.
We all carry emotional and energetic imprints from our childhood. Some of those moments were too big for us to handle back then. We didn’t always have someone to hold us through them. And so, they remain—until we integrate them.
Most adults walk around unaware of these unintegrated parts. And because they’re still living within us, they keep replaying, retriggering the same patterns we experienced as children.
But through embodiment practices—like breath, movement, sound—we can learn to stay present. We can learn to feel unconditionally.
This work isn’t about fixing yourself or forcing yourself to feel better. It’s about learning to hold yourself. Even in the mess. Even when it’s hard.You are worthy. Every feeling you have is valid.
The more you allow yourself to feel, the more free you become. And when you’re free, you can embrace the playful, childlike joy that life is truly about
Love,
Saara Alysa
